Wait For It

Wow.

Even in the state of things, I'm still observing.

Can I not be observant for once, please? Someone? It gets me all the wrong places. Gives me all the wrong thoughts. I suppose I could try to stop, but I can't help it, which is why I need someone to blind all my senses. Please. Just stop me from listening, stop me from seeing, and if it's possible, stop me from feeling. Physically or Emotionally.

I'm not talking about stopping my emotions, no, I'm way beyond that, because I've more than lost it in the last term. I'm talking about my ability to feel things, to perceive certain understandings. Hell, if you could, stop me from thinking. Not like that's ever gotten me any happiness.

But what I'm trying to say is, we're in the last week of school, and I'm seeing things, that I've never seen before, only because it's the end of high school. I surrounded by this myriad of emotions flying around. It's like I'm trapped in a glass house with more of it streaming in. But I don't get to touch on it. Everyone's going on about how they'll miss high school, and more importantly, the people there. Then there are other people, who are already thinking of life after high school. It's all back and forth in time for me.

I am, yet to be swept up with the high emotions riding the waves of time that is tomorrow, and the day after that.

I don't feel anymore.

And yet I still observe.

Why?