Unbelievable

Sigh... I have English class-thingy tomorrow at school -__- in the middle of the holidays !

Stupid, stupid Conflicting Perspectives...

ARGHHH !

That reminds me that I have to write up those three frikkin' essays for English tutoring.

Kill Me.

And the day after that, I have Drama that starts at 9, and ends at 6. But hopefully, I can get out early enough to be able to go to maths, and then get off maths at the earlier time of 4 =)

Huh. Wishful thinking.

And on Thursday, I have the same thing, but this one's more important, 'cause the maths session is all about 4 unit!

Sigh...

Need to fix up drama monologue...

Uhmmm... Need to make Business Studies and Senior Science notes... urgh...

So much studying ahead! And here I am, without even the slightest study plan organised, which I'd told myself I'd make well before the holidays were meant to have started.

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Compulsory Secondary Education aside, everything else seems to be running alright for me =)

I find that I'm caring more and more... Back down, or not? Before everything goes haywire.

Ah crap. Need to go to sleep.

N.B. Added quite a few quotes in the right hand column. Read if you have the time =)

Everything

I will find my way, I want a different way. After the wind and rain, there'll be a brand new day. I will find my way, I want a different way. Nothing can stop me now, no matter what they say.
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Hmmm.... It's the second day of the holidays already =(

Such a waste of holiday time...

Hopefully I'll be able to go to paintball on Friday, even though it's such short notice =\

Sigh... It's only been two days, and already I miss her >__<" --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

On another, less happy note...

The other week, whilst I was trying to rest from being sick and all, I was thinking. A lot.

And suddenly I became worried, and scared.

Worried and Scared for most of the girls in my grade.

I understand and respect them for who they are... but most of them, if not all of them, are thinking too narrow-mindedly.

What I hope they will realise when they leave high-school, is something that I can't put into words to teach them, only have faith that they understand it themselves.

I hope that if ever I tried to teach them something, the words will sink in when they gain experience outside of high school.

High school, is a major step into adulthood. Not necessarily maturity or wisdom, which I hope they will also gain. But adulthood.

Trying to explain adulthood is like trying to explain the meaning of life. It's whatever we make of it. Or whatever someone says it is. Or it's not about what, it's about whom.

You see? There are too many things to define.

Like I always say to the guys: Age does not constitute maturity, or immaturity.

There's no way I can tell everyone.

Why am I seeming sexist and not worrying for the guys as well?

Because yes, I most probably am being sexist. But all the guys seem to affect each other. Where one person gains experience outside of school, it seems to rub off onto the others. Not so much for the girls... Eg: Some of them still don't appreciate the full seriousness of NEEDING A JOB. They just take the things they have for granted. The guys on the other hand, know that getting a job is one step closer to getting things they want; be that accessories for themselves, or a present for their girlfriend.

Oh, the materialism of this world... There's another thing... sigh.. materialism... where would we be without it? Don't diss it, cos you know you have it too; if you have a paying job.

Seriously though, I know my limitations. Hopefully I do.

Moonlit Lunches

Hmm,, am currently going through my photos and the like that I've taken with my camera..

sigh... so boring during the holidays..

Hmm,, the guys are coming over tomorrow, and I don't actually have anything ready.. (I don't know the definition of "ready")

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I wonder if there's ever been a movie with the lines:

Girl: "I hate you so much. I ignore you, I do everything I can to stop you from talking to me, and you still come back to talk to me. How can you not hate me??"
Guy: "Because I love you."

or something varying along that.. well if there isn't, I guess I'll have to make one xP

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ah well... not like it's going to happen..