Colour UnCut

Wow.

Last period really killed my mood.

It hurts.

I know she's troubled, and it's unfair of me to do this, but I just need some times to settle myself.

I know she hates it, but I swear I'll be back as an even greater friend. I just need time out to... give up and accept that it's not going to happen.

Ow.

Does she even know that I like her? Does she even know that my heart is breaking for her?

Shit. I'm Sorry. I know she hates this kind of thing, but I'll still be a friend. I promise. I just need time...

Forgive me.

Beautiful Like Nothing Else

I start this post at 12:01 am. It's Midnight.

At this point, there is a sigh, that no matter how much I try, I just can't release.

It's been sitting there in my diaphragm for the past 6 hours.

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It is now 11:09 am.

I find it hard pressed to finish this blog.

You know that phrase, emotional turmoil? Well. Thoughts are in turmoil too.

Did I screw up?

I hope not.

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Take a chance on me,
And maybe I can show you,
How wonderful love can be.
But all I really want,
Is for you to be happy.

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It's true. That's all I wish you to be.

Happy.

I know you're reading.

Well, I hope you are, anyway...

Shall we talk?

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Sorry. Being absurd.

Or am I?

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Dear Heart,

I appreciate all that you've done for me these past 17 years, but now's not the time to go breaking. Trials are coming up. We need to stay focussed. HSC is coming soon too.
Fuck, Drama.
You're killing me, from the inside out.
It's unhealthy, I swear.

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Speaking of unhealthy.. I still need to:

1) Get my blood test results
2) Get another blood test done &
3) Lose some weight

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Fuck I hate English. Stupid essays.

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It's now 11:27am, Saturday, the 8th of August as I finish this post.

Feel free, but not obliged to leave a comment.

Iris

I've... had a lot of time to myself to think, but not enough time alone to do it.

But... as much as I wish I could hold her, cherish her

I can feel that... it's not going to happen...

So... I'm telling myself to give up...

However... It's easier said than done...

Let it be.

Let it burn.

Let the water run dry.

Come Fly With Me

REALLY PUMPED FOR THE TALENT QUEST TOMORROW!!! hahaha WOOT!

xD

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It's a love story, baby. Just say yes.
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Mmmmhhh... other than the occasional headache today... I'm pretty alright...

And for those brief moments, he felt happiest for the first time in weeks.

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Gahhh.... Talent Quest making me go bonkers...

How Long

Let's not wait till the water runs dry, we might watch our whole lives pass us by.
Let's not wait till the water runs dry, and make the biggest mistake of our lives.

Don't do it, baby.

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Love itches.
Sometimes it's an itch you can't scratch, especially when you need someone else to scratch for you. And then it just kills you if they don't scratch it for you.

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The above paragraph is something I just copied and pasted from FB, which I typed up myself (you'll find it in one of Luce's Photo's Comments)... I think it means quite a bit to me =/

But it's true.

It's annoying.

Love is incomparable. But it can be compared to anything, anything at all.

Love is unique to every individual; "beauty is in the eye of the beholder".

Shit. Emo Rant. My bad.

But one last Emo Rant: I screwed up 4u maths =(

Sigh.

The Smell Of Freedom

I had an epiphany last night before I went to bed:

I wish I were in love again. I don't care if it's unrequited, just want to be in love again.

It's cos I keep feeling lust, and it's really really messing with my system...

I Call It Love

Makes me happy seeing her happy...

Makes me sad seeing her sad...

I smile every time our eyes meet...

I just wish I could hold her and call her mine...

--

I'm so selfish...

Candlelit Breakfasts

Hmm.. Just had the guys over at my house from 11am-7pm.. Wow.. just realised that was a whole 8 hours...

mmh.. was pretty fun, but a bit too dangerous for my liking when we got in the pool... had to stop them doing really really stupid stuff..

Hmm.. I wonder if I can actually go to that outing I had to organise for Sherif..? Doesn't matter if I can't.. don't really feel like going to Blacktown,, not at the moment anyway, maybe I will next Tuesday..

Mmm.. Paintball Next Friday! Can't wait,, not the pain part though, just the shooting part ^^

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Haha, another random movie cut scene:

Guy (some contemporary poet): "When I look at you, I can see that your beauty is infinite. The affection I feel for you in my heart knows- "
Girl(interrupting): "Shush. I know. I love you too." (kisses him, passionately, for a whole minute... and a half)

--

Meh... Suppose it could work...

Moonlit Lunches

Hmm,, am currently going through my photos and the like that I've taken with my camera..

sigh... so boring during the holidays..

Hmm,, the guys are coming over tomorrow, and I don't actually have anything ready.. (I don't know the definition of "ready")

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I wonder if there's ever been a movie with the lines:

Girl: "I hate you so much. I ignore you, I do everything I can to stop you from talking to me, and you still come back to talk to me. How can you not hate me??"
Guy: "Because I love you."

or something varying along that.. well if there isn't, I guess I'll have to make one xP

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ah well... not like it's going to happen..

Thoughts in the Night

It's now... 1:48am Saturday the 14th of June...

I'm feeling kinda tired.. but we won a Basketball game at Hills just 3 hours ago.. so kinda happy bout it..

Hmm.. should be going to bed.. but a thought i wanna elaborate on first..

Was just having a chat with my good ninja friend Bas, and he's been reading up on my Xanga.. and he asked me a pretty wierd question.. wasn't totally random, considering he'd been reading it just before, but was a demanding question for me...


14-06-2008
12:59:57 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i read your blog thing again.
14-06-2008
1:00:03 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
aye?
14-06-2008
1:00:03 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
that...secret-ish one
14-06-2008
1:00:10 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
which one again..?
14-06-2008
1:00:18 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
um.
14-06-2008
1:00:27 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i dunno, i cloed it.
14-06-2008
1:00:31 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
*closed ^^
14-06-2008
1:00:43 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
history <--
14-06-2008
1:00:45 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
um...................cant remember what it was called.
14-06-2008
1:00:46 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
ah.
14-06-2008
1:01:18 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
its the one you gave me the site to when i was off that talks about teresa in every post.
14-06-2008
1:01:23 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
black background.
14-06-2008
1:01:30 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
uhmm
14-06-2008
1:01:31 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
xanga
14-06-2008
1:01:32 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
oonly updated now and then.
14-06-2008
1:01:34 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
yeah
14-06-2008
1:01:40 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i read it again ^^
14-06-2008
1:01:41 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
was it updated at all this time?
14-06-2008
1:02:02 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i dunno
14-06-2008
1:02:10 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
but...im just thinking.
14-06-2008
1:02:13 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
is it just me
14-06-2008
1:02:26 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
and my emo, depressed self, or did you more than like teresa.
14-06-2008
1:02:31 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
honestly.
14-06-2008
1:02:31 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
i don't remember anything in my blogs
14-06-2008
1:02:47 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
more than like..?
14-06-2008
1:02:54 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
you know.
14-06-2008
1:03:07 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
no i don't...
14-06-2008
1:03:59 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
far out.
14-06-2008
1:04:09 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
im not gonna say it
14-06-2008
1:04:12 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
taboo word.
14-06-2008
1:04:23 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
if i say it its jynxed.
14-06-2008
1:04:29 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
hold on hold on
14-06-2008
1:04:36 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
evil?
14-06-2008
1:04:43 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
backwards with an o?
14-06-2008
1:04:44 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
to a degree.
14-06-2008
1:04:47 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
what!
14-06-2008
1:04:51 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
oh
14-06-2008
1:04:51 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
yeah
14-06-2008
1:04:54 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
that one
14-06-2008
1:04:57 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
lol
14-06-2008
1:05:01 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
evil...netver thought of that.
14-06-2008
1:05:03 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
good one ^^
14-06-2008
1:05:05 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
noob
14-06-2008
1:05:58 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
i dunno
14-06-2008
1:06:05 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
who can say what it is?
14-06-2008
1:06:09 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
everyone's different
14-06-2008
1:06:21 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
hm..i suppose.
14-06-2008
1:06:31 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i dunno
14-06-2008
1:06:35 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
you know when you know
14-06-2008
1:06:41 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
thats just how it works'
14-06-2008
1:07:02 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i dunno
14-06-2008
1:07:14 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
your language just made me think that, im cool with being totally wrong.
14-06-2008
1:07:46 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
huh?
14-06-2008
1:09:31 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
.......its too late?
14-06-2008
1:09:39 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
huh..?
14-06-2008
1:09:58 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
it. is. too. late. for. your. mind. to. be. awake.
14-06-2008
1:10:13 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
(im hoping full stops makes it clearer)
14-06-2008
1:10:20 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
oh right..
14-06-2008
1:10:25 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
no... it's just the wording..
14-06-2008
1:11:13 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
oh, my bad, im tired too
14-06-2008
1:11:19 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
it's cool
14-06-2008
1:12:24 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
didnt asnwer me tho :P
14-06-2008
1:12:36 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
just went all confusius on me.
14-06-2008
1:12:42 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
xD
14-06-2008
1:12:50 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
but i don't kno
14-06-2008
1:12:52 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
know*
14-06-2008
1:12:54 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
seriously
14-06-2008
1:13:02 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
hm..k
14-06-2008
1:13:09 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i shouldnt look into htings then
14-06-2008
1:13:28 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
its to late for me to be discussing the l word anyway.
14-06-2008
1:13:34 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
psh
14-06-2008
1:13:34 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
*"L"
14-06-2008
1:13:45 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
heh
14-06-2008
1:13:53 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
no chance now anyway
14-06-2008
1:13:59 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
she's going out with someone
14-06-2008
1:14:04 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
ha, tell me about it
14-06-2008
1:14:05 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
can't do much can i?
14-06-2008
1:14:08 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
nope.
14-06-2008
1:14:17 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
cept sit and wait for your chance.
14-06-2008
1:14:19 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
exactly
14-06-2008
1:14:26 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
it'l come round one day.
14-06-2008
1:14:31 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
unless they get married
14-06-2008
1:14:34 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
then your fucked.
14-06-2008
1:14:46 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
totally
14-06-2008
1:14:50 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
yup.
14-06-2008
1:14:58 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
or after that they divorce
14-06-2008
1:15:04 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
unless you can ninja in a divorce.
14-06-2008
1:15:08 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
i like your thinking.
14-06-2008
1:15:11 AM
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
xD
14-06-2008
1:15:36 AM
TheBaz --- If you let go, that's where Time will stand....
♠♣♥♦Charlie Totem -- Bas (in drama): "Dude, where's my line?"
XD

Yeah.. I know.. some unnecessary guy things in there that didn't need to be written down.. but cbf deleting half of them.. so can you tell me?

WAS it love?